Here’s the Wednesday magic button: this is “Distorted Cymbals” by Mount Eerie. If you’ve been waiting for something to satiate your hungry soul, this be your tonic. Get hungry and let this song Phil you up.
“Distorted Cymbals” was recorded with Calvin Johnson in K’s very own Dub Narcotic Studio, and the B-side features a Selector Dub Narcotic remix entitled “Anglepoise Cymbals”. Put this date on your calendar: “Distorted Cymbals” b/w “Anglepoise Cymbals” (DBN122) hits the streets on February 7, 2012.
I found an audio file of a live Homecomings song on my computer. It says it’s from 2.25.11 at The Bishop. I sort of remember going through a phase like this, putting lots of effects on everything and singing like a junkie. It sounds good now though, perhaps I will return to this phase.
What I didn’t do so well, and haven’t yet done, was figure out how to be at ease in the world. I noticed something about myself when I was married to my first wife, an excellent cook and hostess who knew how to throw a party. My main job was to dole out the drinks, which I liked to do because I could stand behind the bar and never have to really talk to anyone. (“Do you want ice with that?”) My happiest moment, and the moment I was looking forward to all evening, was when the party was over and failure of any number of kinds had been avoided once again.
If you regard each human interaction as an occasion for performance, your concern and attention will be focused on how well or badly you’re doing and not on the people you’re doing it with. This turned out to be true for me in the classroom, on vacations, at conferences, in department meetings, at family gatherings, at concerts, in museums, at weddings, even at the movies. Always I have one eye on the clock and at least a part of the other on whether I’m doing my part or holding my own; and always there is a sigh of relief at the end. Whew, got through that one!
It may be unnecessary to say so, but this way of interacting or, rather, not interacting does not augur well for intimate relationships. If you characteristically withhold yourself, keep yourself in reserve, refuse to risk yourself, those you live with are not going to be getting from you what they need.